Being F**king Inappropriate

 Reflecting today on discussion group during my course workshop - it was a very rich session! We talked about what made art, and what helped to make art, and I said I needed (and enjoyed) creating an environment when I could be 'inappropriate', which I later expanded to 'being fucking inappropriate'. 

I wonder if this is a key to my art? Not being inappropriate in a childish way, but being inappropriate in a way that challenges norms and polite conventions of society? It feels like that the 'appropriate' behaviour after some of the things that I have happened to me is to be quiet, and calm, and polite... But actually, maybe my job is to separate 'art me' from 'real me', and turn up 'art me' to 11? Maybe 'art me' should tap into 'sales me'? Someone was shocked that I was pushing inauthenticity in this way - but maybe shocking is good? Maybe my job is to 'sell' the horrible things that have happened to me in a way that can help other people to face them, and other people to explore and share the terrible things that have happened to them? Maybe I should go from selling cloud computing to selling death? Maybe I am actually a performance artist?! Albeit one that shares their 'performance' only through the documentation of the images produced. Why am I limiting myself to only visual art? I am (I believe) pretty good at writing, maybe I should use whatever I can grasp to share my message?

I think one of my strengths is humour, and I have always used humour to convey and soften tough ideas and situations. Maybe I should be making fucking inappropriate art that is also compassionate and humorous in whatever is the most expedient and effective medium/process? I don't consider my 'Missing Worker' poster to be particularly challenging or brave, but it's been interesting and lovely to see people react on LinkedIn to it in those ways - so many kind words and admiration at my sharing something so personal.

If I truly believe that the process and the medium are just a means to an end, should my MA focus on the technology? Or the rather the ideas? Can I settle long enough on one set of ideas to actually make it the subject of the next two years? Is my personal experience too narrow a subject to share?!